Im an idiot for thinking you were out there. Fooled into believing you care. happiness has a price to steep for me to afford. loneliness and heartache are my only reward for I have earned them believing things would change. It is my destiny only to hang.I thought just maybe i had earned a smile. The world is set on being suicidal. Perhaps it would all be for the best if i just lie down for my final rest. I was told your you are out there though hard to find but the world is cruel to those who are kind. Im not sure if ill ever be happy just be patient you said while laughing.On a sea of misery i set sail knowing in the end i will only fail. I leave now with one final thought im a body in the ground i can only rot.