the thought of you lifts me from the ground. we can have a whole conversation with making a sound. you are my single reason on this earth. the only point to my birth. you will never know how much you truly mean to me. when your not around i feel stranded at sea. ill spend the rest of my days waiting for you. you are the reason behind everything i do. if it wasnt for you id have no purpose. i dream of the day you finally surface.
you are my one true friend. you chamber is round your hole is thin. you fill me with magic. technically its a crime isnt that tragic. you fill up and turn white as snow. my eyes start to glow. i pull the slider and inhale. hurry now before it gets stale. i sit back and release. Ideas in my mind start to increase. i start laughing at jokes that arent even funny. you make the darkest days sunny. there are plenty of was to get desired effect. your my favorite and have my respect. try if want to rip and roar. you cough like a mad man and fall to the floor. you wipe the tears from your eyes and say its only sweat. i hold you out and ask “want some more” to which you reject. i love you so much i even name you. big red, blue meanie, the not so invisible man to name a few. i dump out the water and rinse you out. i kiss you on the side if you were a lady wed be engaged no doubt. i dry you off and put you away. ill use you again later today.
Im an idiot for thinking you were out there. Fooled into believing you care. happiness has a price to steep for me to afford. loneliness and heartache are my only reward for I have earned them believing things would change. It is my destiny only to hang.I thought just maybe i had earned a smile. The world is set on being suicidal. Perhaps it would all be for the best if i just lie down for my final rest. I was told your you are out there though hard to find but the world is cruel to those who are kind. Im not sure if ill ever be happy just be patient you said while laughing.On a sea of misery i set sail knowing in the end i will only fail. I leave now with one final thought im a body in the ground i can only rot.
Every day i wake up its harder then the last. nothing i can do to escape my past. i wish one time id just stay asleep. thinking of you i curl up and weep.all i want is to go away. escape the misery thats here to stay. i despise myself now more than ever. perhaps my life i should sever. living without you is living a lie. hearing your voice brings a tear to my eye. Your happy now and i am glad. I blew any chance i might have had. the thought of you is to much to bare. if i were gone who would care. im alone and itll always be so. its time for me to go
an ocean of fire keeps me from that i desire. your the only one ive ever wanted the one ill ever need. if my life were a plant youd be the seed. i never truelly lived cause i never had you. without you im nothing but a shell of a man a ship without a crew.
i live a life of misery and sadness. slowly my loneliness drives me into madness. i will never have anyone by my side. i wish i had a place to crawl in and hide. the world doesn’t want me and i dont want it. theirs not a place on earth that i fit. pain is my legacy that i leave behind im going to a place no one can find. there i will stay until the day the one love comes my way.
whispers in my ear sweet words of death i say to you with my last breath i love you for you are the only one i have ever none now i sit hear on my throne with you by my side were invincible to the sky and beyond we go to the suns warm glow for you are truely mine forever
i was born into a world i dont belong lost in time like an endless cycle will i ever find my place i stair into space and think why am i here this is unfair im so angry i dont fit in with the people im around they laugh and cheer at jokes that they themselves only hear they see sights that to my own eye is blind an endless mountain i try to climb no one is there to hold me up when im down i never smile only frown for it is my destiny to be alone on a planet i cant decipher i call out to you who is also alone find your way to me
rivers flow through time like a rushing beam of crystal starlight
piercing through the thick fog of blinding hate
i see myself on the other side the closer i get the father away i am
To my nameless angel you lift me out of bed the thought of you fills me with dread your beauty scares me to no end your wings black as night fill me to the brim with fright your blood soaked dress shows what is to be our future together as vast as the sea so i say to you my angel with no name please set me free