I live in the writings i create. Its where i place my feelings of sorrow and hate. Someone once told me “keep writing its good for the soul.” At the time i thought i understood but now im truly whole. The more i let out the more i let in. I truly am a human pen. I hope i live on through my words. My thoughts are my ink to think either will last forever is truly absurd.
My love you brighten my day like the morning glow.
How much you mean to me youll never know.
You are my first thought of the day when i wake.
My affection for you will never shake, never quake, never brake.
You are my sky my star my sun and moon.
I prey to feel your loveing embrace someday soon.
Soon can never be soon enough.
I pray you can see the diamond through the rough
look around do you think this is it? you work hard your whole life for what? this meager existence. face it my brothers and sisters where all worker bees and for what? so our government can grow in power and make a buck? they tell us lies and expect us to buy it? we know theres more out there dont we? just look into your hearts youll know what i say is true. scream and shout “pull of the blind fold. let us see the real you!” wear tired of games it dont matter whos president itll all be the same. we want a true leader not one who decives. tell us whats realy going on tell us whats comeing. LIKE IF YOU BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!
the thought of you lifts me from the ground. we can have a whole conversation with making a sound. you are my single reason on this earth. the only point to my birth. you will never know how much you truly mean to me. when your not around i feel stranded at sea. ill spend the rest of my days waiting for you. you are the reason behind everything i do. if it wasnt for you id have no purpose. i dream of the day you finally surface.
you are my one true friend. you chamber is round your hole is thin. you fill me with magic. technically its a crime isnt that tragic. you fill up and turn white as snow. my eyes start to glow. i pull the slider and inhale. hurry now before it gets stale. i sit back and release. Ideas in my mind start to increase. i start laughing at jokes that arent even funny. you make the darkest days sunny. there are plenty of was to get desired effect. your my favorite and have my respect. try if want to rip and roar. you cough like a mad man and fall to the floor. you wipe the tears from your eyes and say its only sweat. i hold you out and ask “want some more” to which you reject. i love you so much i even name you. big red, blue meanie, the not so invisible man to name a few. i dump out the water and rinse you out. i kiss you on the side if you were a lady wed be engaged no doubt. i dry you off and put you away. ill use you again later today.
Im an idiot for thinking you were out there. Fooled into believing you care. happiness has a price to steep for me to afford. loneliness and heartache are my only reward for I have earned them believing things would change. It is my destiny only to hang.I thought just maybe i had earned a smile. The world is set on being suicidal. Perhaps it would all be for the best if i just lie down for my final rest. I was told your you are out there though hard to find but the world is cruel to those who are kind. Im not sure if ill ever be happy just be patient you said while laughing.On a sea of misery i set sail knowing in the end i will only fail. I leave now with one final thought im a body in the ground i can only rot.
Every day i wake up its harder then the last. nothing i can do to escape my past. i wish one time id just stay asleep. thinking of you i curl up and weep.all i want is to go away. escape the misery thats here to stay. i despise myself now more than ever. perhaps my life i should sever. living without you is living a lie. hearing your voice brings a tear to my eye. Your happy now and i am glad. I blew any chance i might have had. the thought of you is to much to bare. if i were gone who would care. im alone and itll always be so. its time for me to go
an ocean of fire keeps me from that i desire. your the only one ive ever wanted the one ill ever need. if my life were a plant youd be the seed. i never truelly lived cause i never had you. without you im nothing but a shell of a man a ship without a crew.
i live a life of misery and sadness. slowly my loneliness drives me into madness. i will never have anyone by my side. i wish i had a place to crawl in and hide. the world doesn’t want me and i dont want it. theirs not a place on earth that i fit. pain is my legacy that i leave behind im going to a place no one can find. there i will stay until the day the one love comes my way.
whispers in my ear sweet words of death i say to you with my last breath i love you for you are the only one i have ever none now i sit hear on my throne with you by my side were invincible to the sky and beyond we go to the suns warm glow for you are truely mine forever